Leo,

Today I shed a fresh blanket of tears for you. I felt washed over by sadness, hopelessness, and impatience. I couldn’t escape wondering how many New Years I’d have to ring in before we finally meet again.

It didn’t take long before I realized that those feelings were just road blocks. God has amazing things in store for my family and me this 2015.

I resolve to never lose faith but to lose my insecurities that keep me from fulfilling God’s will. I am a Unique expression of Christ and I have a purpose. Hopelessness has no place on my path.

I still miss you every moment that I live and breathe. And each time I visit your grave, I dig up a few more hopes and dreams that I buried when you left us.

I don’t know how I’ll make it another year and I don’t know what this year has in store for me. All I do know is that I will continue surviving and that the God I believe in is good.

Happy new year my son. I wish you were here with me. I would still trade my breath for yours if ever given that chance.

All my love,
Mom