Light in darkness

Leo, When my dad died, I felt my soul clench and close up. I hid my light from the darkness that surrounded my life, my family, my friends. I was a dim candle light in the heaviest and thickest darkness that you could ever imagine feeling. I breathed in darkness and struggled to exhale light. […]


April 26, 2013 3:00pm Leo, I think I’m supposed to help others who have suffered a great loss. I’m realizing that there isn’t any faith based support groups that I can easily find. Also, there aren’t any support groups in South Bay or in kaiser. What a shame because I need help immediately and it […]


April 27, 2013 7:40pm Leo, Your dad and I are going on an adventure tonight. Over the past few weeks, we have been on a serious adventure through life and death; faith and trust, and so much more. Tonight, however, we are going to old town via public transportation to have a margarita. As we […]

Sense of humor

May 8, 2013 2:24pm Hey Leo, I’m sitting at the cemetery with you right now. It’s a beautiful day. The sun is out, there are puffy white clouds in the sky, and I can feel the cool mist from the nearby sprinklers on my face. I was reading the news to you when a funny […]


June 1, 2013 8:49am Leo, I’m at la vista again. As I’m staring at your pile of flowers, I started to recite the poem I chose for your bereavement cards, “If love could only have saved you, you never would’ve died.” When I heard in my head “love saved you”. Thats when i realized that […]


Leo, Wow, life is crazy right now. I feel so close to God in one way and so far away at the same time. Does that make sense? It’s like, I fully trust in Gods plan, but I don’t feel him working in me the same way I used to. It’s probably just me ignoring […]

Knowing everything

If you could know everything that God knows, would you want to? I used to think that I would…and then 2013 happened (is happening). I felt the joy and perfection of giving birth to my amazing son, Leo. I had 26 amazing days with my bundle of pure joy and then I felt the tremendous […]