Leo, When my dad died, I felt my soul clench and close up. I hid my light from the darkness that surrounded my life, my family, my friends. I was a dim candle light in the heaviest and thickest darkness that you could ever imagine feeling. I breathed in darkness and struggled to exhale light. […]

April 24, 2013 1:15am Leo, I saw you tonight in my room. But you weren’t a baby, you were a little blonde boy, about 7 years old. How quickly you’ve grown, my sweet boy. Thank you for looking in on lily and me. I love you! Mom

April 25, 2013 10:47 pm Leo, I cannot believe you left us two weeks ago. I love you so much, my son. I keep trying not to replay the night you passed away. But I also find myself trying not to think about you. I am struggling to separate the pain from the joy. I’m […]

April 26, 2013 3:00pm Leo, I think I’m supposed to help others who have suffered a great loss. I’m realizing that there isn’t any faith based support groups that I can easily find. Also, there aren’t any support groups in South Bay or in kaiser. What a shame because I need help immediately and it […]

April 27, 2013 7:40pm Leo, Your dad and I are going on an adventure tonight. Over the past few weeks, we have been on a serious adventure through life and death; faith and trust, and so much more. Tonight, however, we are going to old town via public transportation to have a margarita. As we […]

May 8, 2013 2:24pm Hey Leo, I’m sitting at the cemetery with you right now. It’s a beautiful day. The sun is out, there are puffy white clouds in the sky, and I can feel the cool mist from the nearby sprinklers on my face. I was reading the news to you when a funny […]

May 8, 2013 2:26pm Leo, Our love transcends time. Always, Mom

June 1, 2013 8:49am Leo, I’m at la vista again. As I’m staring at your pile of flowers, I started to recite the poem I chose for your bereavement cards, “If love could only have saved you, you never would’ve died.” When I heard in my head “love saved you”. Thats when i realized that […]

Leo, Wow, life is crazy right now. I feel so close to God in one way and so far away at the same time. Does that make sense? It’s like, I fully trust in Gods plan, but I don’t feel him working in me the same way I used to. It’s probably just me ignoring […]