Who am I? I thought I had the answer to that question, until April 11, 2013, when my son Leo passed away suddenly and unexpectedly. My whole world, my identity, my values, my priorities, all of it; changed. Who I am is no longer defined by my profession, age, or personal preferences, it’s defined by what I do, what I stand for. I am a bereaved mother with two surviving children. I am a dedicated wife, a loving mother, daughter, sister, cousin, friend. I am a Christ-follower. I am dedicated to showing the world the same kindness, compassion, and love that my husband and I felt when our son died. I am dedicated to SIDS awareness and to helping others find hope during their darkest hours. I am Angela Riggs and I am Surviving SIDS.
What is Surviving SIDS?
Surviving SIDS is a weblog that I created to store the personal letters that i’ve written to my son, Leo. Sadly, Leo didn’t survive SIDS. This blog is about me, trying to survive the loss of my healthy baby to SIDS. Grief can be an extraordinarily lonely, isolating, hopeless, confusing, and angry place to live but I can definitvely say that I’m on a journey to healing. In the meantime, I’ve chosen to believe in, and more importantly, to trust, God’s will. I choose to honor Leo’s memory by showing the world the same love, kindness, compassion, and grace that was shown to my family when Leo passed away.
If you are a grieving a parent or know one, please urge them to reach out to other bereaved parents. It’s a sad “club” to be in, one that we most certainly didn’t choose, but nonetheless, we’re all in this together. It really does help to hear from someone who has been through loss. Seeing that they are still waking up every morning, that they care for their remaining children, that they can smile, laugh, tell a joke, talk about their angel, have more children, whatever it may be…seeing that gives us hope. And at a time when the world feels so dark and constricting, hope is all we have. It’s the beacon of light that is going to lead us through this pain to a place where it feels tolerable.
What you will read on my site are my uncensored and very personal letters to my son. I originally created this site, simply to store my letters in a secure place (where they wouldn’t get lost). Over time, I have realized that these may be helpful to some.
Thanks for stopping by. If you’re a bereaved parent, please know that you are Surrounded by Love and that you can reach out to me if you want to talk.