The pain of losing my son is so hard to describe. The best way I can describe it is “tangible”. I know it doesn’t make sense, because a memory is intangible, but the loss of Leo, the night he died, and the days following his death are all things that I can actually feel. If […]
Happy New Year friends! If you read my last blog post then you know that I was feeling let down by the end of the year not having some dramatic effect on my spirits. I didn’t try, but somehow I had the best New Years Eve yet. I woke up this morning filled with peace […]
So, I’m going to break my usual format and write to you, my readers, instead of to my boy, Leo. I started this blog when Leo passed away. It was a place where I could go and tell my son the things I could no longer tell him, since he was gone. Surviving SIDS has […]
Leo, I started a new job this week. If you had asked me a month ago if I would leave UCSD, I would have said “No”. I was perfectly comfortable there and it was really the only thing left in my life that hadn’t changed. Since we sold our home, we have been looking to physically center […]
If you could know everything that God knows, would you want to? I used to think that I would…and then 2013 happened (is happening). I felt the joy and perfection of giving birth to my amazing son, Leo. I had 26 amazing days with my bundle of pure joy and then I felt the tremendous […]
I walk around everyday with this incredible pain inside my chest. My heart is the epicenter of the pain and it radiates to the top of my head, to the tips of my fingers, to the heels of my feet, and everywhere inbetween. I smile because I know that I’m supposed to. I laugh, because […]
April 28, 2013 2:46 pm 17 days ago, a piece of my heart died and went to heaven. I am so surprised that my faith in God’s plan is so rock-solid, despite the nightmare that was put in front of my family and me. Leo continues to bring us small signs and visions to let […]
Surviving SIDS 