Today I broke down crying because the feeling of missing you overwhelmed me. I have been thinking of you even more strongly than usual. I had a dream about you…you looked a lot like Lily.
As your second birthday approaches, I find myself feeling weaker and weaker. I’ve been so busy that I haven’t written you but you know how often I think of you and try to connect with you.
I just miss you and I wanted to take the words from my heart and send them out to you. I am broken. I am scared. I am scarred. I am still so sad that you’re gone. I want all 4 of my kids with me.
Alyssa told me that you came to her in a dream and told her that you wanted to come back. I wish that were true but I have no way to know. I want you back. I want to hear your voice. I should have gotten to raise you.
It’s all so unfair and so heartbreaking.
I love you, son.