May 11, 2013
I’m feeling so sad right now. It’s Mother’s Day weekend and you’re not here with me. This sucks. I should not be at this wedding today. I should have you with me right now. I should be worried about how to handle this situation that Zach and I were put in. (He’s the best man in a wedding and its a no kids wedding). Losing you is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to go through. And I’m all alone. Zach is with the wedding party, my kids weren’t invited, and I’m just so alone.
It’s hard to go on without you. It’s not fair.
God give me the strength to be a part of society without my son.