Dear Leo, Sometimes I find myself feeling so dizzy. I think that the stress of losing you, of watching over your sisters extra carefully, of waiting for a final cause of death, of mourning, is getting to me physically. There are days when I just can’t stop crying and I literally cry all day long. […]

Leo, I was just talking with a coworker who was kind enough to pray with me today. I told him how a piece of me died the day that you died. After he left my office, a picture of you, your sisters, and your dad in my bed, looks so happy. And that’s when I […]

Leo, Alyssa told me about a dream she had of you. After a really long and difficult day, this story was like a cold drink of water…refreshing and quenching. She said that she dreamed of you and that you said, “Don’t worry about me Alyssa, I’m with God now. And also, a new baby is […]

Leo, Today is one of the hardest days I’ve had. I woke up this morning and your dad was questioning himself all over again; “Was it my fault? Could I have been responsible for your death? Was it “overlay”? I know I wasn’t on top of the baby, but I doubt myself.“ God, that is […]

Leo, Sometimes I’ll be doing something totally ordinary, like making breakfast, and I’m reminded that I used to hold you while I got the ingredients prepared…and I start to miss you all over again. You were such a bright ray of sunshine in my life and I miss you and love you in a way […]

Leo, I still have trouble accepting what happened to you…to us. It breaks my heart so painfully to think that you would, could, should be here with me…with us. I miss kissing your sweet baby cheeks. And every time I remember my last moments with you, and your two last sweet little sounds, the remains […]

May 28, 2013 4:38 pm Leo, I cannot believe that I have made it this far without you. You inspire my faith in God, and in turn, my faith gives me strength. I am a different person than the mom that you left behind a month and a half ago. I am more loving, kind, […]

Leo, Your dad and I took a walk along the beach this morning. It was so peaceful and uplifting. As we were walking, I noticed a little white shorebird that looked a lot like a small white crane. There were three of them, which is awesome because you seem to have this theme with the […]

Leo, Today a new sids study was published and it states that babies who sleep with their moms and dads are 5x more likely to die of sids even if they are breast feed and the parents don’t smoke or do drugs. At first I thought, okay cool, new info. After I read the study, […]