May 8, 2013 2:24pm Hey Leo, I’m sitting at the cemetery with you right now. It’s a beautiful day. The sun is out, there are puffy white clouds in the sky, and I can feel the cool mist from the nearby sprinklers on my face. I was reading the news to you when a funny […]
May 8, 2013 2:26pm Leo, Our love transcends time. Always, Mom
June 1, 2013 8:49am Leo, I’m at la vista again. As I’m staring at your pile of flowers, I started to recite the poem I chose for your bereavement cards, “If love could only have saved you, you never would’ve died.” When I heard in my head “love saved you”. Thats when i realized that […]
Leo, Wow, life is crazy right now. I feel so close to God in one way and so far away at the same time. Does that make sense? It’s like, I fully trust in Gods plan, but I don’t feel him working in me the same way I used to. It’s probably just me ignoring […]
If you could know everything that God knows, would you want to? I used to think that I would…and then 2013 happened (is happening). I felt the joy and perfection of giving birth to my amazing son, Leo. I had 26 amazing days with my bundle of pure joy and then I felt the tremendous […]
Leo, I’m so lost. I’m so confused, overwhelmed, and just complicated. My emotions are so mixed up right now. I miss you and I wish you were still here. Today, your dad’s cousin had her second baby. We are so thrilled for them. It reminds me of bringing Lily home from the hospital. I saw […]
Leo, I’m sitting here next to your grave right now…feeling completely lost, devoid of purpose, and running low on self worth. Losing you was impossible, losing my dad made it even harder. Have you ever heard someone say “infinity plus one”? That’s how I’m feeling. It seems ridiculous to think you can add 1 to […]
Leo, It’s been a while since I’ve written to you. I hope you know that I haven’t forgotten about you…the reason I haven’t written is actually quite the opposite. On 6/20/13, your Papa Augie, my dad, passed away. You already know this, I’m sure. I am feeling numb right now. First my son, then my […]
4/12/13 7:48am Dear Leo, I woke up today so sad that you were not in bed next to me. I wanted to reach out and hug you, smile at you, kiss your sweet warm baby cheeks, and give you breast milk as we doze in and out of sleep; just like we did every day […]
Leo, I saw your picture today at work and it hit me hard…you’re really gone. Nobody is going to knock on my door or call me to say that you’re back; that there was a cure; that this didn’t really happen. It’s really over and my heart is hurting so badly. I know that you’re […]
Surviving SIDS 