Empty Arms

April 15, 2013 4:08 pm Leo, Your death keeps playing over and over in my mind. I hope I never forget the sound of you taking your last two “breaths”, or the taste of your blood in my mouth, or the heart breaking feeling of my empty arms. I need this pain to remind me […]

Mourning in the morning

April 13, 2013 6:53am Good morning my sweet baby, My heart aches today because I don’t have you in my arms. I’m sending you lots of kisses and a big hug. I slept with your blanket the last two nights. It seems silly, but it makes me feel a little better to have something of […]

“Should”

April 12, 2013 2:36pm Leo, There are so many things that I “should” be doing right now. At the funeral home, I thought that I should be pushing your stroller into the handicap stall in the bathroom and I was so sad to realize that I wasn’t pregnant and I didn’t have you in a […]