May 1, 2013 3:51 pm Hey baby boy, I have not stopped thinking about you and the adorable faces you used to make. I miss you so much that it actually hurts. I feel like I’m walking a fine line between grief and this bottomless pit of depression. It’s like I can see the pit […]
April 30, 2013 11:41 pm Hi son, I’ve visited your grave everyday since we buried you on 4/19. Your dad and I miss you beyond anything that words could describe. We went to Disneyland today and were so happy to see a stork on the dumbo ride. We knew, that moment, that you were with […]
April 28, 2013 2:46 pm 17 days ago, a piece of my heart died and went to heaven. I am so surprised that my faith in God’s plan is so rock-solid, despite the nightmare that was put in front of my family and me. Leo continues to bring us small signs and visions to let […]
April 23, 2011 11:21 am My heart is so confused over this I pray god shows me the way To Put one foot in front of the other Each and every day. I pray for faithfulness as I walk down this unknown path To know that god is with me Guiding me…..
April 22, 2013 2:51 pm Hi Leo, I visited you again today. Afterwards, when I was sitting down watching tv with your dad, I started feeling sad. How I miss you so much! Then, when everything started to feel confusing and depressing, I met a lady who lost her 2 month old 35 years ago. […]
April 21, 2013 11:24 am Leo, I forgot to mention to you, a story that Alyssa shared with me two or three days after you died. She has been dreaming about you. Though, of this you’re probably aware, as I believe you really are speaking to her in her dreams. She came to me and […]
April 21, 2013 11:19 am Leo, Today is your memorial service. After today, the rest of the world will move on… Will I? How? Sitting in church this morning, I’m struck by the realization that, even though it doesn’t feel like it, your dad and I have come a long way in the last 10 […]
April 20, 2013 1:49 pm Leo, Today I visited your grave. I am so broken inside without you. People have been astoundingly kind and generous and yet, i still feel empty. I would trade all of the kindness and love to have you back. It’s hard sometimes to enjoy the beautiful gifts that god has […]
April 19, 2013 11:48 pm Leo, Today was your funeral. It was so beautiful and so personal. I miss you dearly. I realized today, after I saw your little body, that your essence, your “Leo-ness” if you will, is gone. You’re already in heaven and we are burying just your body. The part that god […]
April 18, 2013 6:38 am Good morning my sweet son, I made it through one week without you. I’m not sure how or why one week feels like a milestone, but I made it. I didn’t think i would be able to. I miss you so much. Planning your funeral has been so full of […]
Surviving SIDS 