Zach and I were supposed to go to Disneyland this morning. We had gone to Disneyland the night before and were debating whether we should go again or just start heading home. As we approached the Mickey and Friends parking structure, we started to realize just how crowded Disneyland really was. I suggested we […]
When Leo died, Zach and I had no choice but to put all of our faith and trust in God. We knew that trusting God’s plan would be the only way that we could survive (or try to survive) losing our son. From April 11 to April 19 we had no real idea of where […]
Leo, I miss you. I can’t stop thinking about you. I want you back. I feel so alone sometimes. My brain echoes with the horror of finding you lifeless in our bed. That moment haunts my every thought. When do I get to see you again? Why can’t I fill my head with memories […]
Leo, Have you ever sat by the water’s edge and watched the ducks swim around? I know you and I didn’t get to do that together, but maybe there’s a pond in Heaven that’s filled with ducks near the playground where you run around with your friends. They seem to just glide across the water, […]
I’m broken, but not beyond repair. #captureyourgrief #whathealsyou #self portrait
I started writing letters to Leo the day after he passed away. I kept them private for a little while and I found such a closeness and so much comfort in each letter I wrote. I decided to create a private blog where I could safely store my letters and go back and read them […]
Leo, My idea of family changed so much when your sister Alyssa was born. I had no idea what love was until I saw her sweet little face as the nurse tenderly placed her on my chest as soon as she was born. The world was trusting me and your dad with this little person! […]
Day 7- Memory…I just can’t. Not today. My heart will cry out for you “as long as stars shine down from Heaven, and the rivers run into the sea, til the end of time, forever…” #whathealsyou #captureyourgrief #memory #survivingSIDS #jacivelasquez
Leo, Today’s subject is Dark + Light. I’m not going to lie, this has been a topic that I’ve struggled with since I was little. Why does darkness exist? Why do bad things happen to good people? Why can’t things just be right, be happy, be easy? After you died, I was awash in […]
Leo, It’s so hard for me to re-tell your story. Often times, people just want to know how you died, and I don’t hesitate to explain it to them, but that isn’t “your story”. There is so much to your story that even I don’t know. I speak about your birth, your life, your death, […]
Surviving SIDS 