Leo, I miss you so very much. My heart actually hurts right now. I didn’t realize that a broken heart could cause such physical pain. I am feeling angry right now. I am overwhelmed by the sadness of accepting that you’re not here with me. You should be here right now. We should be playing […]

Come and Gone

May 6, 2013 1:55pm Hi Leo, You’ve officially been gone for as long as you were here. That is such a chilling thought and I still can’t believe you are gone. I can’t get over how much I miss and love you. Your dad and I still come to the cemetery daily, although we will […]

Your Song

Leo, Your dad and I went to disneyland without your sisters yesterday. We wanted to have a moment to connect with each other and make sure we are both grieving separately and together. The last thing we want is for your sudden and unexpected passing allow us to drift apart. After a fun day at […]

Trusting God

May 2,2013 12:25 pm Leo, I’ve finally got a therapy appointment today. I hope she can help me understand what grief is, on a general level. Im having a hard time discerning if I’m getting depressed or if I’m grieving in a healthy way. What I do know is that I miss you so much. […]

Bottomless Pit

May 1, 2013 3:51 pm Hey baby boy, I have not stopped thinking about you and the adorable faces you used to make. I miss you so much that it actually hurts. I feel like I’m walking a fine line between grief and this bottomless pit of depression. It’s like I can see the pit […]

Not moving forward

April 30, 2013 11:41 pm Hi son, I’ve visited your grave everyday since we buried you on 4/19. Your dad and I miss you beyond anything that words could describe. We went to Disneyland today and were so happy to see a stork on the dumbo ride. We knew, that moment, that you were with […]


April 28, 2013 2:46 pm 17 days ago, a piece of my heart died and went to heaven. I am so surprised that my faith in God’s plan is so rock-solid, despite the nightmare that was put in front of my family and me. Leo continues to bring us small signs and visions to let […]

A Heavenly Reminder

April 22, 2013 2:51 pm Hi Leo, I visited you again today. Afterwards, when I was sitting down watching tv with your dad, I started feeling sad. How I miss you so much! Then, when everything started to feel confusing and depressing, I met a lady who lost her 2 month old 35 years ago. […]

If only in my dreams

April 21, 2013 11:24 am Leo, I forgot to mention to you, a story that Alyssa shared with me two or three days after you died. She has been dreaming about you. Though, of this you’re probably aware, as I believe you really are speaking to her in her dreams. She came to me and […]