Leo, I know I promised to write you on 2/18/14, but I just couldn’t. I haven’t been able to sit down and write to you since then. Not for lack of want or words, but out of fear. My beautiful boy, my eternal 26 day old son, not a moment goes by that I don’t […]
Leo, My sweet sweet boy, it’s been a while since i’ve written you! I have to say that it wasn’t unintentional, I have been in a period of transition and felt it would be best if I lay quietly for now. So much of the pain and despair that I was feeling on a daily […]
My beautiful son, I think about you with each breath I take. Each moment that I am blessed to live on, I do in your honor, in your memory, filled with the love of God. You were one of the best parts of me and I am brought closer to healing every day. This wound […]
Leo, As 2013 finally comes to an end, I feel, well, deflated. I had hoped that something drastic would change when the new year rolled by, but I don’t think that is going to be the case tonight. Nothing in my life will change just because the date changes. But you know what? My life […]
Leo, Today would have been our first christmas with you. I would have had you dressed up in some annoying outfit, probably with a bow tie. Instead, though, we have our first christmas without you. It goes without saying that it’s been rough. You were too young, too loved, too wanted, to pass the way […]
Leo, I hate to say this, but I sort of can’t wait for Christmas to be behind me. I’m usually so excited this time of year. We normally go and look at lights, visit Santa, drink lots of cocoa, decorate the house, have a huge xmas party…but this year…i’m just not feeling it. Thanksgiving was […]
Leo, Sometimes I feel like you’re laying on my chest, sleeping peacefully…just like you used to. I can feel…or sense (probably a more appropriate term) your physical presence. I just can’t get over how badly I miss you. I was supposed to be holding you for years and years to come. We weren’t supposed to […]
Leo, I know, I know, Dia de los Muertos was on 11/2 and we celebrated it on 10/26. I get it…I’ve procrastinated this letter. I think it’s taken me so long to write about this because I need time to digest all of the emotions and experiences that I encountered during this event and leading […]
Leo, Yesterday marked my seventh month without you. I try not to keep track of the time but sometimes it jumps out at me. Although I feel like I’ve come a very long way since then, I think a big part of me will always be stuck on 4/11/13. The person who went to sleep […]
Leo, As I was sitting in traffic today (which I tend to do A LOT) I was watching the second hand on my watch tick on and on. As each second passed, I thought, I’m one second closer to seeing you again. People worry about my impatience to see you again, but rest assured…I’m not […]
Surviving SIDS 