Leo, Sometimes I’ll be doing something totally ordinary, like making breakfast, and I’m reminded that I used to hold you while I got the ingredients prepared…and I start to miss you all over again. You were such a bright ray of sunshine in my life and I miss you and love you in a way […]

Leo, I still have trouble accepting what happened to you…to us. It breaks my heart so painfully to think that you would, could, should be here with me…with us. I miss kissing your sweet baby cheeks. And every time I remember my last moments with you, and your two last sweet little sounds, the remains […]

May 28, 2013 4:38 pm Leo, I cannot believe that I have made it this far without you. You inspire my faith in God, and in turn, my faith gives me strength. I am a different person than the mom that you left behind a month and a half ago. I am more loving, kind, […]

Leo, Your dad and I took a walk along the beach this morning. It was so peaceful and uplifting. As we were walking, I noticed a little white shorebird that looked a lot like a small white crane. There were three of them, which is awesome because you seem to have this theme with the […]

Leo, Today a new sids study was published and it states that babies who sleep with their moms and dads are 5x more likely to die of sids even if they are breast feed and the parents don’t smoke or do drugs. At first I thought, okay cool, new info. After I read the study, […]

Leo, Happy two month old birthday. I thought I would share the story of how your dad and I chose your burial site. Maybe one day my words will help another grieving family. After you died and we had to leave the hospital without you, your dad and I were devastated and so confused. We […]

Hi Leo, Today is a really hard day for me and I’m not so sure why. I could not sleep last night despite my best efforts. I am overwhelmed by sadness and stress. The sadness, I get. The stress, though…? I have put my trust in God and I know that he has a plan […]

May 14, 2013 6:50pm Hi Leo, I’m here at La Vista sitting next to your grave. I miss you so much. Last night, Alyssa told me that she didn’t remember what you looked like. So I decided to show her and Lily some videos of you. God, that was so hard to do. I miss […]

Leo, Today was my first day back to work since my maternity leave began in February. Driving in, I posted on Facebook and prayed for god to give me strength and grace today. Driving into the parking lot, I almost had a panic attack. My heart was racing, my palms were sweating, and I was […]

May 11, 2013 4:40 pm My Leo, I’m feeling so sad right now. It’s Mother’s Day weekend and you’re not here with me. This sucks. I should not be at this wedding today. I should have you with me right now. I should be worried about how to handle this situation that Zach and I […]