April 21, 2013 11:19 am Leo, Today is your memorial service. After today, the rest of the world will move on… Will I? How? Sitting in church this morning, I’m struck by the realization that, even though it doesn’t feel like it, your dad and I have come a long way in the last 10 […]

April 20, 2013 1:49 pm Leo, Today I visited your grave. I am so broken inside without you. People have been astoundingly kind and generous and yet, i still feel empty. I would trade all of the kindness and love to have you back. It’s hard sometimes to enjoy the beautiful gifts that god has […]

April 19, 2013 11:48 pm Leo, Today was your funeral. It was so beautiful and so personal. I miss you dearly. I realized today, after I saw your little body, that your essence, your “Leo-ness” if you will, is gone. You’re already in heaven and we are burying just your body. The part that god […]

April 18, 2013 6:38 am Good morning my sweet son, I made it through one week without you. I’m not sure how or why one week feels like a milestone, but I made it. I didn’t think i would be able to. I miss you so much. Planning your funeral has been so full of […]

April 17, 2013 6:25 am Leo, The pain of losing you Is so fresh in my heart. I hate that you had to go. I hate that I cannot reach out and touch you; that my only chance of connecting with you is in my dreams or in a vision or sign of some sort. […]

April 16, 2013 2:54 pm Will you come see me, my angel When I go to sleep tonight? Will you hold me, my angel When in darkness there’s no light? Will you comfort me, my angel When tears stream down my face? Will you come see me, my angel When I lay you in your […]

April 15, 2013 4:08 pm Leo, Your death keeps playing over and over in my mind. I hope I never forget the sound of you taking your last two “breaths”, or the taste of your blood in my mouth, or the heart breaking feeling of my empty arms. I need this pain to remind me […]

April 13, 2013 6:53am Good morning my sweet baby, My heart aches today because I don’t have you in my arms. I’m sending you lots of kisses and a big hug. I slept with your blanket the last two nights. It seems silly, but it makes me feel a little better to have something of […]

April 12, 2013 2:36pm Leo, There are so many things that I “should” be doing right now. At the funeral home, I thought that I should be pushing your stroller into the handicap stall in the bathroom and I was so sad to realize that I wasn’t pregnant and I didn’t have you in a […]