I started writing letters to Leo the day after he passed away. I kept them private for a little while and I found such a closeness and so much comfort in each letter I wrote. I decided to create a private blog where I could safely store my letters and go back and read them […]
Leo, My idea of family changed so much when your sister Alyssa was born. I had no idea what love was until I saw her sweet little face as the nurse tenderly placed her on my chest as soon as she was born. The world was trusting me and your dad with this little person! […]
Day 8 -wish listThis is so personal, so I’m keeping my wish list to myself and am taking this opportunity to thank you for following this project and supporting Zach and me. Each of you picks up a piece of our broken hearts, making this journey a little less to bear and a lot less […]
Day 7- Memory…I just can’t. Not today. My heart will cry out for you “as long as stars shine down from Heaven, and the rivers run into the sea, til the end of time, forever…” #whathealsyou #captureyourgrief #memory #survivingSIDS #jacivelasquez
Leo, Almost as soon as you passed away, books started to fill my nightstand and iPad. Friends, family, strangers, even some authors, gifted us their books about loss, grief, and especially Heaven. I became fascinated and so thirsty for knowledge of where you were. I have never been to heaven, you see, so I needed […]
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Leo, Today’s subject is Dark + Light. I’m not going to lie, this has been a topic that I’ve struggled with since I was little. Why does darkness exist? Why do bad things happen to good people? Why can’t things just be right, be happy, be easy? After you died, I was awash in […]
Leo, It’s so hard for me to re-tell your story. Often times, people just want to know how you died, and I don’t hesitate to explain it to them, but that isn’t “your story”. There is so much to your story that even I don’t know. I speak about your birth, your life, your death, […]
Leo, Today I put a lot of thought into my intention in your honor. What does that mean? What does it mean to me? How do I intend to honor you? I honor you by playing with your sisters. I honor you by cleaning your grave and leaving fresh flowers. I honor you by […]
Leo, This year I’m participating in a project called Capture Your Grief. Every day in the month of October I intend to snap a photo and tell a story about my grief. October is pregnancy and infant loss awareness month and this project leads me right up to Dia de los Muertos. I think this […]
Surviving SIDS 