Leo, I don’t know if you remember this, but when you were two weeks old, we read ” To Heaven and Back” by Dr. Mary Neal. I didn’t know at the time how important this book would be to me. Our church was going to have Dr. Neal as a guest speaker the week after […]

Leo, I can vividly remember saying goodbye to your cold grey body at the hospital.  I don’t know why that creeps into my mind, but when it does, I literally struggle to breathe.   My chest tightens and my breathing becomes labored.  I remember touching your ice cold arm and crying.  I told you that I […]

Leo, I feel like I am trying to move on without you. Everywhere I turn, I’m reminded that you used to be with me, in my arms, all of the time. We just sold our house. The house where we started our family. Where I excitedly ran upstairs to barge in on your dad in […]

Hi, my beautiful son. I miss you terribly. Today, I was talking about you at the yogurt shop. The lady who worked there was asking about your sister’s age gap and I told her that they are 21 months apart. I proceeded to tell her that you are also 21 months younger than lily. It […]

Leo, When my dad died, I felt my soul clench and close up. I hid my light from the darkness that surrounded my life, my family, my friends. I was a dim candle light in the heaviest and thickest darkness that you could ever imagine feeling. I breathed in darkness and struggled to exhale light. […]

April 24, 2013 1:15am Leo, I saw you tonight in my room. But you weren’t a baby, you were a little blonde boy, about 7 years old. How quickly you’ve grown, my sweet boy. Thank you for looking in on lily and me. I love you! Mom

April 25, 2013 10:47 pm Leo, I cannot believe you left us two weeks ago. I love you so much, my son. I keep trying not to replay the night you passed away. But I also find myself trying not to think about you. I am struggling to separate the pain from the joy. I’m […]

April 26, 2013 3:00pm Leo, I think I’m supposed to help others who have suffered a great loss. I’m realizing that there isn’t any faith based support groups that I can easily find. Also, there aren’t any support groups in South Bay or in kaiser. What a shame because I need help immediately and it […]

April 27, 2013 7:40pm Leo, Your dad and I are going on an adventure tonight. Over the past few weeks, we have been on a serious adventure through life and death; faith and trust, and so much more. Tonight, however, we are going to old town via public transportation to have a margarita. As we […]

May 8, 2013 2:24pm Hey Leo, I’m sitting at the cemetery with you right now. It’s a beautiful day. The sun is out, there are puffy white clouds in the sky, and I can feel the cool mist from the nearby sprinklers on my face. I was reading the news to you when a funny […]